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Seperti bangkit dari mati suri. Akhir saya kembali membuka halaman demi halaman coretan tangan, kumpulan gambar dan potongan-potongan kenangan saya di blog ini.

Seperti halnya saya yang pernah berkata bahwa hidup adalah rollercoaster, hidup pun telah memberikan saya perjalanan yang penuh ombang-ambing dalam kurun waktu singkat selama saya berhenti menulis. Dan saat ini saya seperti kehilangan arah.

Pernah merasa memiliki sebuah tempat berteduh yang begitu nyaman hingga kamu lupa caranya menghindari perubahan cuaca yang selalu datang dan pergi tanpa peringatan? Atau memiliki sebuah tempat untuk berpegang sehingga ketika bumi terasa berayun kencang semua goncangan tidak berasa, dan ketika pegangan tangan itu lepas yang terasa hanyalah tubuh kita jatuh dan jatuh dan jatuh.

Saya bukan hanya seperti kehilangan arah, tapi juga seperti tersesat dalam langkah kaki saya sendiri. Dan yang saya rasakan hanyalah betapa jauhnya orang-orang berada saat ini sehingga saya tidak dapat lagi berteriak memohon pertolongan. Saya sudah tidak bisa lagi menangis karena tahu tidak akan ada lagi yang dapat mendengar.

Kata "takut" terdengar seperti an understatement. Saya bukan lagi merasa takut. Saya tidak lagi merasa. Hanya tersesat, dan tak tahu lagi harus mengarah ke mana.

Hidup memang mengejutkan. Tapi yang paling mengejutkan adalah ketika saya sadar bahwa bahkan ketika saya dalam sekian tahun selalu mengingatkan diri untuk bersiap akan hal apapun yang disodorkan kepada saya, tetap saja saya tidak siap untuk menghadapinya. Dan sekarang semua sudah terlambat.

Seandainya waktu bisa berputar balik. Seandainya saya bisa lebih bersiap diri. Seandainya ada yang bisa mendengar tanpa saya harus berbicara apapun dan memeluk saya tanpa bicara apapun. Seandainya saya bisa menghilangkan rasa kesepian yang menyakitkan ini. Seandainya menjadi dewasa tidak begitu terasa sepi. Mungkin suara di dalam kepala saya ini akan berhenti berteriak setiap saat dan saya bisa berpikir dengan lebih tenang untuk dapat menjalani semua. Mungkin.

At a cousin’s wedding event. While chatting with my grandmother, I saw a little girl, tall and skinny with a straight long hair, standing awkwardly in her purple dress and half clinging to her mother as if looking for protection.
I was reminded immediately to myself, on my early teenage years and thought of how much alike she is to how I was on those years.

And then a few minutes later her Mother approached this woman who sat next to me and told the girl to introduce herself.
The girl shakes the woman’s hand while introducing herself, “Dita”.

2013 
Diawali dengan langkah-langkah kecil baru dalam hidup, pekerjaan baru, rumah kontrakan baru, teman-teman baru, bahkan anggota keluarga baru.

Kemudian sedikit demi sedikit Tuhan memberikan ujian-ujianNya.

Pada pertengahan tahun Ibu menjalani operasi pengangkatan tumor payudaranya. Dan berturut-turut keluarga kami kehilangan orang-orang yang berharga.
Dimulai dari Pakde Djarot, paman yang banyak berjasa untuk keluarga kami dan berperan dalam acara pernikahan saya dengan suami di tahun 2012, meninggal menjelang puasa setelah berjuang melawan kanker paru-paru.
Tak lama kami kehilangan Eyang Is, tante dari Ibu yang juga meninggal setelah beberapa lama sakit. Mendekati akhir tahun cobaan semakin berat datang.
Om Ayik, adik kandung Ibu dan bapak kedua saya yang saya panggil dengan sebutan Papi Ayik, harus berjuang menghadapi kanker hati dan berpulang di awal November.

Pada waktu yang sama orangtua saya pun sakit.

Maka saya pun meninggalkan pekerjaan saya dan saya bersama suami kembali ke rumah orangtua saya supaya saya bisa selalu mendampingi Ibu yang setelah kehilangan adiknya langsung mulai dirawat di RS karena serangan tumor ganasnya.

Awal Desember Ibu berpulang ke Rahmatullah dan tepat di penghujung tahun Bapak pun pergi menyusul Ibu.

Masya Allah... 

Mungkin rasa sakit di dada dan kehilangan yang luar biasa ini akan butuh waktu yang lama untuk sembuh dari cobaan yang bertubi-tubi datang di tahun ini. Tapi saya benar-benar berharap bahwa tahun mendatang akan lebih "terang" baik untuk keluarga dan diri saya sendiri.
Semoga bisa jadi lebih kuat.
Semoga kami bisa meneruskan cita-cita dan berbagai ajaran hidup Bapak Ibu dan mereka yang telah pergi meninggalkan kami.
Semoga...

Selamat tahun baru 2014. 
Bersyukurlah untuk hadirnya orang terkasih yang ada di samping kalian saat ini. Jangan sia-siakan segala momen hidup yang kalian miliki.

Salam,
Dita.

Timeless Tales

I have started blogging since 2006. Back then I had so many blogs with different purposes and themes. I had one that compiled all my fiction writings, another one was about music and movies, others were my daily journals, where I shared my personal stories of love and heartbreaks. On the year 2008 I started compiling stuff from those different blogs, throw away all the cheessy and unimportant posts, and put the important or interesting posts into one single blog. That was when I started my blog, "The Diary of Ms. Dee".

I chose that title because I had no other idea what to name it with and decided to go for an obvious line which basically describes best of the posts consisted in my blog. Just about my life, my diary, my personal interests and thoughts.

But then I started to write different things, my work, my creations, my ideas and talk less about my personal problems. And also I felt that, having so actively blogging for so long, I need to expand this blog on more things to share. Because my life is also expanding. I'm going through some more experiences in life, I travel more, I create more, I write more and share more things that aren't totally personal for me. And with more people joining in this blog, many new people reading it more day by day, I don't think that being "just a diary" is no longer relevant. Therefore I decided to change the title of this blog.

I chose the title "TIMELESS TALES" because I love telling stories, of my life, of my love, of my family and things that I have loved for. And I love to share more lately about everything that I cherish in this world and I am working on, and more new interests that I found along the way. Thank you to all of you that have been reading my stories and words on my blogs since 2006, or this blog since 2008. And also thank you for new followers and readers who have been so kindly to drop by (please drop by more often). I will keep blogging as long as I can and I will share to you all everything that I am going through from this day onwards.

xoxo,

Dee ~~♥

Source: book-slut.tumblr.com via Amanda on Pinterest

Source: ohreneedesign.com via Amanda on Pinterest

oh, yes...

I crave for...

Rainy days has come now. So why say no to cute Sweaters?

Let's warm up :)

Pictures taken from tumblr.

A Simple Hello (Back)

Hello, everyone...It has been a long while since the last time I updated this blog of mine, haven't I? I have a lot of things I want to share to you guys from the past months I've been offline but there's so many things in mind that I just don't know where to start.

Well, since I'm still at work so I guess I'll have to wait 'till tonight before I start writing back. I changed my blog design and and thinking of getting a new title for the blog. Deffinitely open to any ideas, if any of you could help me decide.

Starting my updates, I'll share you this cute video on how to make a yummy Beet Cake (yyummmm!!). This video was made by Tiger In a Jar, one of my favorite few that I found on Vimeo. The video is so creative and I love watching it over and over again. Enjoy and see you soon :)

beet cake from tiger in a jar on Vimeo.

Cupcakes Wishes

“Aku mencintaimu.

Itu sebabnya aku takkan pernah selesai mendoakan

keselamatanmu”

Sapardi Djoko Damono (1989)

A very late private birthday celebration for your birthday on last August 15th.
A cute and tasty Blue Velvet cupcake from Cupcakes Company, with a single match lighted as a candle for you to blow out while making your special secret wish.

I love you.
Hope everything in your life will go to the better and the best.
Have a special birthday, my love :)

-d-

Cupcakes Crave

I tweeted my wishlist this morning, saying:

I want cupcake towers on my wedding #wishlist #serius

I have been wanting cupcakes, and won't stop imagining having towers of lovely and yummy cupcakes on my wedding day (don't ask when yet, we're working on it). Some of my followers (including you, maybe) perhaps wondered what triggered my cravings for cupcakes on my most important day of my life that is coming (not too soon, actually). Well, this is why:

DC Cupcakes is an American reality television series which follows sisters and business partners Sophie LaMontagne and Katherine Kallinis as they run Georgetown Cupcake, a small cupcakery located in Washington, D.C..

I have been watching this show every week lately and always adore those little yummy cupcakes, and kept on wishing for them. I mean, don't you think that these lovely yummy cupcakes are just.....delightfull?

I can imagine having a perfect and beautiful day with them around us and our guests.

Video & photo courtesy of Georgetown Cupcake

05.04.10

The goal isn't to live forever, the goal is to create something that will.

[Chuck P]

Spark

Saturday Nite. Tori Amos. Chat with my busy boyfriend through Yahoo Messenger. Planning and making lists of the things we need to do. Design (things). Commenting on our (though not totally) ruined photoworks. 

Here's one of the (though not totally) ruined photoworks that my boyfriend and I made. We used Nikon FM2n and FM10 on the photos we made, but we think the problem was in one of our camera lenses. I have no idea why, but I still like this photo...though it's one of the most ruined photo of them all.

Grainy photo, splitted frames and that big black dot at the center. But it was a wonderful moment :)

Am craving for these beautiful shawl from Cotton-Ink. I'm flat broke, though..no shopping for awhile *sigh*.

Photo courtesy of Cotton-Ink

My mother has been sick for the last few days. Am worried. Praying for her to get well soon. Please pray for her also :(

Good Life - For Today and For Tomorrow

[Good Life by One Republic]

Have been watching the news for the last few days and all I keep getting are bad news. So many bad things are happening in Indonesia, all the riots, the anarchy, the hatred and seeing people hurting and killing each other. And just today I read another story about the injustice that is taking part in Indonesian law.

As one of Indonesian young people, I know that we all want everything to be better. Better future, more justice and especially, more peace. Let's all keep our positive minds and hope for the best, and give our best to make a better future for everyone. Because the future is ours to make.

"The hope is we have so much to feel good about

...

This could really be a good life"

Tomorrow will be Thursday, the day when the mother of our dear friend, Alanda Kariza, will be fighting for her own justice and fighting for truth. Let's all please give support and prayers for Alanda, her mother and her family. Let's all pray and hope that truth and justice will be on their side tomorrow. Give support through Twitter by giving hashtag #HelpAlanda and spread the word. And read her whole true story here:

http://alandakariza.com/ibu/

God bless you, Alanda. And God bless us all...

Birthday Bro

January 28th is my brother's birthday. Our family has this special habit of celebrating. We celebrate everything, including (mostly) our birthdays. The point of the celebration would probably be about gratitude, to really express our appreciation and gratitude  for everything we've been going through on our past moments in life. To celebrate life.

We would usually order pizza or I would make any kind of Italian dish for these occassions, but this time we were all too busy and my Mom was craving to have McDonalds' special yearly menu, Beef Prosperity. So we order McDonalds last night and had the fullest junk food meal of our life.

don't we all loooove junk food?

This is my brother and that's how he got that belly XD

Happy birthday, little brother. Hope everything you do will give you more prosperity in life. Have fun in Singapore!! *saying with envy*

Tuesday Only For Me

Tuesday was payment day. I had two very tiring and boring days this early week and decided that I might need some "me" time to refresh myself. I couldn't decide what to do but when I look at myself at the mirror I noticed how awful my hair really looked, since I haven't gone to any beauty salon for almost half a year, so I decided to get myself a haircut right after work.

I got off work at 5 PM then walked to Senayan City, which is not so far from my office (I actually go pass in front of it on my way home everyday). I went straight to the ATM to get my payment of the month and managed to get a "little snack" at Burger King to get rid of the headache I've had that day (I guess I was just hungry).

Itadakimasu....! :D

After the meal I rushed upstairs to Johnny Andrean and get my hair done. My hair is already so much longer than before, which I always made to a little bun when I go to work, and my bangs are ridicolously so messed up that they always cover my whole face whatever I do. I love how my hair looks right now, it still has its original length (the hairstylist only cut the end a bit about an inch long) but now I have layers and this very cute bangs.

Before - the long bangs and little bun

After - cute bangs and layers! my hair looks thicker...(finally)

After the haircut I went to Debenhams and bought some new lingeries. I can't give you the whole pic, though. Haha..

Alright, I give you the price tag..

I also got some new accessories which are very very amazing. I got this vintage pocket watch that I've been wanting for so long and a vintage camera necklace, all from PhieGarage.

What I wear: unbranded purple tanktop and vintage white-gray stripes cropped blazer I bought on a garage sale at La Piazza, Vintage Pocket Watch and Vintage Camera necklace by PhieGarage.

Releasing: My Pettite Shoppe!!

On the process of re-arranging my bedroom, I opened up my wardrobe and found a lot of stuff in it that I never really wear. I even found some of them that I've never wear (even once) eversince I bought them. I put them in boxes and split them to groups. I gave some for charity, and others for my younger relatives.

I've been planning to hold a small garage sale to sell the other items, that are still in mint condition or un-worn but never find the right time or place to do so. So I finally decided to do it online!!

So, here it goes....

I'm releasing my own small online shop, at http://mypettiteshoppe.blogspot.com. In that special blog I will post any stuff that I can sell or giveaway. And since the blog itself would probably need frequent updates, so later on I won't be just selling pre-owned stuff and secondhand items, but also some of my own designs or any limited items that I found and sell-able.

I'm also offering to anyone who wants to sell any interesting stuff (probably pre-owned/secondhand items) to send it to me so I could spare a space to sell them out also.

Just go and make a short visit (click on the link above or under the image below, or hit on one of the tab under the blog title). Wish me luck for the shop and don't forget to contact me later :)

-dee-

http://mypettiteshoppe.blogspot.com/

[Ian Axel - This is The New Year]

"We are the voices....This is the new year"

I just wanna say,

2010 Memorabilia

Heading to the final week of the 2010 I decided to list down some of the amazing moments and a lot of experience that I had from this year. Let's start...

January

I resigned. I've been working in an architecture firm for 18 months when I realized...it's time to move on. Got back at my own interest in photography and fashion. Been quite active with Jong Arsitek. Started writing again.

February

Got a new job. I actually wanted to work as a freelance designer/photographer but then realized that I still need a lot to prepare for it, so I got myself a new job at another architecture firm, which is where I'm working still.
Placebo's concert. Had a chance to attend meet&greet and had a photoshoot with them, then had the time of my life in their amazing concert. Unbelievable!!

Placebo!!!

March

The proposal. The man that had been my dearest best friend for the last 7 years took me to this small coffee corner at the mall and gave out this huge question, "Should we or should we not?"

Spent the next whole week to gather any courage I had in my heart to make that leap. Best friends do make best lovers. I love him.

Jong Arsitek's 2nd birthday. Got new friends and found old friends.

What we have now

April - May

Most of my activities relates only to work and any events held on the behalf of Jong Arsitek. And dating... Finding more into my man's mind and him to mine.

June - July

New Camera (actually my brother and I gathered money for it, he then used the new one and I use the old one that we have). Got more into photography. Jong Arsitek's national exhibition. It was a success.

Jong Arsitek family @ The Young Architects National Exhibition

August

My mom's birthday. The first fasting I celebrate with my boyfriend. His birthday. I made some Italian dish for his birthday. He doesn't like celebrating it though, but at least he loved the dinner :)

September

Our first Idul Fitri together. Had a chance to travel by my own to join my boyfriend at his hometown. I met almost all the members of his family. I met his loving mother, his older sisters, his brother in law who was really nice to me, his older brother and his kind wife, and also his nephews and nieces...all nine of them! I fell in love to all of them at the first sight (I hope they do too). Went to Solo and finally back to my family's house which I missed so much. Met our old friends and had a short tour in the city.

An amazing journey.

Our little reunion

October

Had another wonderful journey. Had my 27th birthday....away from home, away from my family and my lover (HATE IT!!)

But at this month I suddenly realized...I've grown older, not only physically but also mentally. And at this point I started to keep reminding myself...it's really time to put my own ego aside.

At the end of this month, the Merapi Mountain erupted.

November

Had the early weeks of this month full of tension since the eruption of Merapi got worse. There was so many natural disaster that happened at the same time accross Indonesia but Merapi was the main concern of mine and my boyfriend's. Because it was so much closer to our hometown. We were both in Jakarta but Muntilan, his hometown, is located so close to Merapi (Solo is not so far away but the city was in safe distance). We got awake almost 24 hours a day until the whole eruption ended, listening to volunteers' radio to make sure that his home would be safe. We got so worried one time (and I was practically in tears) when we couldn't contact his mother or his sister. I still thank God that everyone was safe.

Mt. Merapi

December

More on writings. More photo huntings. My boyfriend and I released our photoblog. I moved out from my boarding house and starting to live back with my parents to safe more money and be closer to my boyfriend. Designed new layout for my bedroom...which the re-arranging process is still on-going (I'll get back to you on that when it's finished..hope soon). Got a lot new friends from my blog (hello, followers!!). Got to know (and even meet) some amazing people from the fashion industry, from both local and international, through internet and also real life.

So much opportunity came to me and my boyfriend even as I am writing this. Can't wait to see how they'd go through.

Well, the year of 2010 has been a total rollercoaster for me. I had fun, I laughed about a lot of things, got hurt and got back up, fell in love and found a lot more amazing things throughout the year that was so memorable. Still can't believe a year has passed. I still have a lot of things in mind, a lot of plans for myself and my life. And I'm more determined than ever to really try to reach them one by one.

But for now....

Addio, 2010!! See you again on 2011!!

-dee-

CoboCobo - Pion Fingerboards

Following up on my previous post on the event my boyfriend and I went to for helping our friends and Pion Fingerboards (read here), I searched through my files and found this video. This is the trailer made for introducing Pion Fingerboards, with Ade and Hallala showing some tricks with their fingerboards along the video. The music used as the background soundtrack was created by the man of my life, Wahyu Adi Pramardika (Dika - well, he used the nickname "silakelima" in this video).

I just have to post this. Come see :)

[Cobocobo - first official trailer from Pion Fingerboards]

Wood Hard, Play Hard

Last Sunday, December 19th 2010, my boyfriend and I went to an event held at Hanggar Teras Pancoran, Jakarta. It was The Kings of Fingerboarding 2010 (TKOF 2010) - a competition of fingerboard-ers from across the country held yearly. Want to know what a fingerboard is? This is it:

Fingerboard

Well, I bet most of you actually know about them :)

Anyway, We were invited that day to help out our friends, Ade and Hallala, who came from Solo with their friends to promote their brand, Pion Fingerboards. The both of them and added with some other finger-skater were all in the competition, so they needed back-ups to guard the booth were they sold and exhibited a lot of their products such as T-shirts, spareparts and accessories for fingerboards, and this is where Dika and myself came in. The boys joined up with the team of Undead Fingerboards at the exhibition.

The booth

The people that came by to our booth

Busy but fun

The battle - The boys of Pion and Undead at the competition

And they got some titles from the competition!! Yay for them!!

We had so much fun. And I also found out that there were a lot of young finger-skaters that came by to our booth as fans. Well, you should really check out on their website. Just click on the picture below!

Oh by the way, the title above is actually quoted from Pion Fingerboards' catch-phrase :)